Words of Enlightenment

As I am left to deal with my emotions, I have made time for myself to reflect but also I have been spending lots of time with friends to support me through this tough time. Chris originally wanted a two week break to decide if we should stay together or not. At first I was all down for it because I really love him and want to do whatever it takes to make it work. But then I realized that breaks usually never end well, and if he really loves me and cares about me, he should want to work out our issues together and not have a two week break to toy with my emotions. One of my new found friends, whose name is anonymous gave me some break through advice that really opened my eyes and gave me a new perspective on my situation:

"I would say there is no way I would let some guy break with me, for a short time, to explore other stuff and then have me take him back. To me that is basically saying that your feelings, love, and time invested do not matter. It would be bull shit for me to say oh Laura, you will find someone. Or you will get over it. Meaning the typical bs ppl say. Will you meet someone else down the road? Of course."

As I read these harsh words, they became more real to me. How could Chris give up on our relationship three weeks into my arrival from Europe after spending eight months abroad? And even worse, how did he not have the balls to break up with me in person instead of a measly phone call? Relationships take work. Hard work. I agree that the state of our relationship was not perfect, but I was hoping that we could work on our problems together and support one another even if we may fall short sometimes. Perhaps he just isn't ready for a serious relationship. Either way, I have closure because I know I did everything I could to let him know that I love him and am willing to work together to be in a healthy, loving, and committed relationship. I deserve someone who feels the same way. Plain and simple.